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pedromakarachi · 21st January 2015, 18:25

Seems like a few have mixed opinions and rightly so. Mental health and it's symptons are often mistaken or misunderstood.

Rewinding to a comment in my earlier post of 'you can counsel other but you can't council yourself'. Seems due to being inside the circle(so to speak) is harder, where as those outside the circle(i.e. you and your problems)find it much easier to look in and advise.

Personally I find that my head(the rational aspect of my concious being) gives me good advice and a sense of following the right path(be it through morals, ethics or other defining factors) but my heart(which many people have told me I wear on my sleeve thus making me an easy target for some)takes me on some wild rides through an emotional roller coaster. I agree that different people have different strengths and different coping mechanisms but, looking at my mental health issues and how other people suffer with similar, it is hard to cope as you find yourself hurting in the most painful emotional way known only to yourself. You start to push those closest to you away so they don't get sucked into the black hole you feel you will inevitably descend into. But as you push them away it hurts more, then you want to have them close. But then the fear of them getting hurt in your problems arises and so on and so forth. It is a battle of conflict and a vicious circle that is very hard to find a way out of. Given enough time you can spiral into a world within yourself that is far worse than originally existed.
Despair, depending on how the individual feels, can be the final straw and I have recently lost a friend who took his own life. As selfish and sad as it may seem to some, being in a dark place where others may perceive you at your weakest, to make that decision to take your own life, you must find a new strength through irrational thinking to be able to follow such a distressful course of action. Not saying I admire people who do commit suicide but I have a weird respect in some way when they have the actual guts to do it.

Through being lost in my despair and emotions, my strength to keep going is my wife, my family and my friends. I couldn't put them through that pain imo

21st January 2015, 18:25	#20
pedromakarachi Infrequent Poster Join Date: Sep 2014 Location: Wigan, Lancashire Posts: 129 Car(s): Citroen Saxo Vtr	Seems like a few have mixed opinions and rightly so. Mental health and it's symptons are often mistaken or misunderstood. Rewinding to a comment in my earlier post of 'you can counsel other but you can't council yourself'. Seems due to being inside the circle(so to speak) is harder, where as those outside the circle(i.e. you and your problems)find it much easier to look in and advise. Personally I find that my head(the rational aspect of my concious being) gives me good advice and a sense of following the right path(be it through morals, ethics or other defining factors) but my heart(which many people have told me I wear on my sleeve thus making me an easy target for some)takes me on some wild rides through an emotional roller coaster. I agree that different people have different strengths and different coping mechanisms but, looking at my mental health issues and how other people suffer with similar, it is hard to cope as you find yourself hurting in the most painful emotional way known only to yourself. You start to push those closest to you away so they don't get sucked into the black hole you feel you will inevitably descend into. But as you push them away it hurts more, then you want to have them close. But then the fear of them getting hurt in your problems arises and so on and so forth. It is a battle of conflict and a vicious circle that is very hard to find a way out of. Given enough time you can spiral into a world within yourself that is far worse than originally existed. Despair, depending on how the individual feels, can be the final straw and I have recently lost a friend who took his own life. As selfish and sad as it may seem to some, being in a dark place where others may perceive you at your weakest, to make that decision to take your own life, you must find a new strength through irrational thinking to be able to follow such a distressful course of action. Not saying I admire people who do commit suicide but I have a weird respect in some way when they have the actual guts to do it. Through being lost in my despair and emotions, my strength to keep going is my wife, my family and my friends. I couldn't put them through that pain imo Last edited by pedromakarachi; 21st January 2015 at 18:29.